I have a devotional by The Ransomed Heart emailed to me daily. To be honest, I have gotten into a pattern where I don’t even read them daily. Sometimes I’ll skim them, sometimes I’ll file them away under my Daily Devotional category in my gmail and sometimes, if the title doesn’t seem like it “applies to me”, I’ll even just delete it without thought. It only takes a couple of minutes to read and think about the short message sent each day and I really want to be better at taking that time to just hit pause on my day and read them. Today, I did just that. The message really hit me too. I want to share the devotional I received today and I pray that you guys can get something out of like I did.
Until We Are Broken, Our Lives Will Be Self-Centered
True strength does not come out of bravado. Until we are broken, our life will be self-centered, self-reliant; our strength will be our own. So long as you think you are really something in and of yourself, what will you need God for? I don’t trust a man who hasn’t suffered; I don’t let a man get close to me who hasn’t faced his wound. Think of the posers you know-are they the kind of man you would call at 2:00 A.M., when life is collapsing around you? Not me. I don’t want clich?s; I want deep, soulful truth, and that only comes when a man has walked the road I’ve been talking about. As Frederick Buechner says,
To do for yourself the best that you have it in you to do-to grit your teeth and clench your fists in order to survive the world at its harshest and worst-is, by that very act, to be unable to let something be done for you and in you that is more wonderful still. The trouble with steeling yourself against the harshness of reality is that the same steel that secures your life against being destroyed secures your life also against being opened up and transformed. (The Sacred Journey)
Only when we enter our wound will we discover our true glory. As Robert Bly says, “Where a man’s wound is, that is where his genius will be.” There are two reasons for this. First, the wound was given in the place of your true strength, as an effort to take you out. Until you go there you are still posing, offering something more shallow and insubstantial. And therefore, second, it is out of your brokenness that you discover what you have to offer the community. The false self is never wholly false. Those gifts we’ve been using are often quite true about us, but we’ve used them to hide behind. We thought that the power of our life was in the golden bat, but the power is in us. When we begin to offer not merely our gifts but our true selves, that is when we become powerful.
(Wild at Heart , 137-38)
I love that last line. “When we begin to offer not merely our gifts but our true selves, that is when we become powerful.”
How true is that? I for one can say I have often tried to hard to display what I feel my gifts and talents are and fall short of just being ME.
This week I’m going to work on embracing me and letting my comfort, power, and confidence stem from that.